day 5: the house of self-undoing
The twelfth house in an astrology chart is often called "the house of self-undoing." Self-undoing because it usually points to paranoia, self-sabotage, addictions, mental health issues, etc. Traditionally, it's the "worst" house out of all the twelve houses.
Well, Mars made its way into my twelfth house yesterday. And Mars is in Scorpio now, AKA the best sign for Mars to be Mars. What Mars does best is anger, aggression, conflict, cutting, and physical energy. Having Mars in Scorpio, and to be in the house of self-undoing is not pleasant. Yesterday was quite rough for me. I came home from work exhausted, dejected, and on edge.
But, I managed to get some school work done. I reviewed the list of fallacies we learned in the last unit, and I finally feel clear on them. Then I attempted to read some George Eliot before bed, an actual fun and light read, but I was just too depleted to think. I ended up closing my eyes at 9pm.
I am trying not to ruminate on it. Today, I drew the tarot card 4 of swords reversed. The ultimate "do not ruminate" card. Time to move on. Time to look forward.
I know I am writing about yesterday, today. But there is still time left in the day for me. Technically, I'm still at work. But there is a lull right now. So I decided to take advantage of it.
Today I hope to start working on an assignment. Hoping to get the at least the first two questions done. Like, done-done. Ready-for-submission done. I have procrastinated on it for far too long. I also plan to start a crochet project, because I seriously need to mellow out. I'm still on edge.