shivers
i raised my head up and you were looking at me. our eyes immediately locked, and you didn't look away. it was i who turned away first.
did i just imagine it? curse the physical distance i deliberately put between you and i. distance makes things hazy and then i can't tell if this is all in my head.
i long, sinfully, to send out a more concrete signal. i know the right thing to do is not to chase you. at the same time, i fear of potentially closing the gap.
the hubris i have. who's to say you could ever feel the same. shame bubbles up. i'm not even worthy. still, yearning is enough for me. i'm used to dwelling in my fantasies.